restlessness.

sometimes i feel utterly restless and hoping for some big thing to happen in my life. While life just drifts by slowly.. and its as though it is a daily surrender of my pen. As though God is saying... Na -a! you don't take the pen from my hand, im going to write down a beautiful delicious , superbly amazing recipe for you. If you were to write it yourself you're gonna get yourself a Hamburger. TRUST ME.

and i hesitantly go... are you sure Lord. like how long must i wait, im sure i can create a pretty decent meal. and He is like " TRUST ME i made the Ingredients i know how to make beauty. So leave it to me hun, im gonna turn your tomatoes and carrots into something amazing! and im like " Seriously Lord, you can make something amazing out of tomatoes and carrots.." .. for real?

Noelle, I totally turn a Shepherd's boy to King, a boy abandoned by His brothers to be the Ruler, i gave the loner Ruth a Boaz, and the orphan Esther to be Queen. I can do what i want, you know what you need to do, have faith and trust me. None of them could have stick through if they did not truly TRUST in me. and Lived by Faith. Do it Noelle. TRUST ME.

I know your deepest desires, I know your deepest needs. I and only I can satisfy the longing of your soul.

I am forever on time and i never build anything in vain.

TRUST ME.

must learn to be a good steward.

urgh.. i must realize

1) i have more than enough clothes and should stop shopping. and shop only if my clothes disintegrate or all get full of holes and stuff because honestly i DO have more than enough. And should not bother about clothes anymore.

2) that if i can save, i should. And not be so lavish or extravagant on my spending on meals and food and such. Try to buy only what is necessary, reasonable and healthy!

3) thing more of others, to bless others. to give to the church and missions and such.

4) be a good steward with my money. my time. talent. and all God has given me.

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im enjoying my facebook fast. I think i'll stick to it, and continue to be strict and firm with myself and prioritize well.

God, please lead and guide me, show me , and grant me opportunities to be a good steward in all you have placed in my hands. amen..

APRIL 25!

Its already April. The Lord is GOOD !
We must always look back and remember all the goodness He has bestowed upon us.
Our hope would increase as we see what the gift of faith He has generously given us could do!
As we rely on Him as our Only Trust. He shows us, He is the Only thing we do need to trust and hope in.

There are times i look at my imperfection. and It humbles me and shows me how ignorant i am when i judge others or have a critical mind. There are much of me that needs to improve, and i know that it would be a working progress, a life long working progress. A daily dying to self, and Listening to the Spirit. Its not easy, but im determine to always give my best! To run this race with endurance!

He is full of lovingkindness and tender mercies.

Neighbour.

Today was an eventful day.

As i was driving to work, my left front tyre burst. So i decided to stop at a parking slot. I proceeded to asking the custom officer nearby if there were any mechanics nearby, He did not look that friendly. Though he came back with a friend, and they helped me changed my tyre :). 3 malay government servants helping me. It really humbled me to never judge a person by race, position or status.

After they were done , i told them " Thank you so much , i'll remember you forever ! ". They also told me to go to a nearby shop area where there are mechanics. I listen to their advice and arrive to the area without any difficulties. There i met a lady who is in charge of the place. She speaks fluent english and have a very unique and exotic strong face!, She was the kindest, she even called a cab for me to sent me to work, it was such great and helpful service! :)

At work, when it was time to clock out. I asked a few colleagues if they would give me a lift to the mechanic as it was nearby. To my great disappointment they were all reluctant to help me. It made me feel not so very loved. Though i've earned never to expect anything from anyone. Especially and especially those who have a lot and are more than capable of helping because they are the ones who won't know what it feel like to want help nor be willing enough to go out of their way to help.

Called the cab and arrived at the mechanic. She was so lovely and she also gave me discount. An honest boss that is helpful and kind. I do pray for all these Lovely Good Samaritans. That God may pursue them and that they may come to know His love . They have also thought me to be a good samaritan when the opportunity presents itself.

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“Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?”

The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.”

Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.”

Luke 10:36-37

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Mercy - compassionate treatment of those in distress 

the fullstop to all my choices.

I TRUST MY GOD ! He has been forever faithful and forever loving and forever GOOD!!!
HE blows my mind always! i am waiting on Him forever, cos He the BOMB! :P

unworthy.

sometimes i see my own faults and it looks ugly. i wished i was better, i wished i was more loving more patient , kinder, softer, gentler. I guess, i'll always be learning and realizing my own faults would keep me in lowliness, the best position to be for a Christian. Sometimes i feel so unworthy for all the blessing God has given me because im so flawed. How can i be deserving. i must have done something right i guess... He breaks my heart with His patience, love, kindness and gentleness towards me. Thank you lord for your unfailing love. amen.

Abraham and Isaac.

The kingdom of God is within you. We shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

How wonderful it is when God becomes our primary focus on everything! How necessary it is to lay down everything at His feet. It doesn't happen without a fight. My natural tendencies are to grasp and keep, to hold tightly, to tell God " this is what i want, i think it is good, give it to me, i am waiting " How foolish is this thought and way. We must be humbly give our desires up to God. He's thoughts are not our thoughts nor our ways His. Trust the Lord, and lean not on your own understanding.

Everyday will begin the battle,

But we never can prove the delights of His love

Until all on the altar we lay;

For the favor He shows, for the joy He bestows,

Are for them who will trust and obey.