the pilgrim

'one day, i would like to travel around the world! Wouldn't that be a treat.'

'i guess it would be wonderful! but what is your reason for traveling? to view and experience different places, culture? you know as the world say, to open your eyes so on so forth?'

' yeah! kinda. Well everyone travels now. Its the thing to do. oh, you know what i mean! it would be life changing! haven't you read, Eat Love Pray? you know, Julia Roberts. Wouldn't you want to visit those places too?'

'yeah, it would be rather lovely!, but honestly, i am much more excited about getting to this One destination.'

'so, where is this mysterious destination?'

'mmm.. it is where my Father is. Its not here on earth you see, and we only get to be there, when He calls us back to Him. For now, here on earth, it is where He prepares us for that special day.'

'And how on earth do you expect to get there? a space shutter? your such an alien you know'

' Funny. well first of all, you've got to believe of His existence. The one who made that place where He now is. (He also created the entire world you see, and both you and me). To believe what He has done for humanity, and to know that He is the only way to where He is.

He is the one who created this whole wide world and all of its beauty. He gave us rain, the sunshine, fruits from trees to feed our bellies. Even created the colorful crazy world under the sea of salty water! He is where life is.

And this place where He is, it is a magical place! It is where He rules and reigns. He is, the source of love, justice, mercy, beauty and goodness. I imagine it would be much more beautiful than any place that could be found on earth combine. It would be a place so unheard of that you won't believe what it is like until you actually, arrive.

Anyway back to it, to believe in Him, is ultimately to have faith! Faith in Him whom we can't see, faith in believing in who He is, and what He has promised us. Faith in the unseen Friend, Him that governs this whole wide world and breath it into existence. The thing about faith is that, it is a gift from Him. He gives it to us, and its up to us to receive it or to reject it. He also gave us free will, you see. To either choose our own way, or to say " Father, i'll follow your way, your will be done in my life". 

We can't claim this gift of faith as our own doing. It is a gift from him to us. He told us that we did not need to worry, He is the author and perfecter of our faith. We can trust and depend on Him, He doesn't ask us to do anything for Him whatsoever but to obey. He also gave  us His Spirit, to live in us and guide us towards Him. He decided that once His only Son a perfect being, came to pay the price for our sins, (resurrecting on the 3rd day showing how He is more powerful than death) He would sent us a Helper. A Helper to guide us walk His way, towards that one day where we will finally be ready to meet Him . It would not have been nice leave us abandon you see, We are no longer orphans once we accept Him, but His children. He wants to lovingly guides us as a shepherd with its sheep. Reigning in our lives, shining His light through us in this dark dark world. 

This world we are living in. It is absolutely fallen. Full of hate, violence and destruction. Jealousy, lies, injustice. From the beginning of time, from the fall of mankind. The disobedience towards Him who created us separated us from Him. He meant well for what He asked of us, it was to protect us, out of His love and kindness and His wisdom of what is true and good. But we decided to rebel since the beginning of time. We questioned, 'why can't we just be like Him, and eat the fruit of " knowledge of Good and Evil" which He commanded us not too'. The serpent, the one who despises God and wants to do things his own way, he tempted adam and eve to disobey, with the subtle props of 'why not', did he really say that' come on..' do you seriously think you will die once you eat it'... The one who created us, had His reasons and timing for asking of our obedience. But we rebelled ever since the beginning, sin crept into this world and this is why life on earth is as it is now.

Whether you know it or not. We are ultimately in the hands of the Maker. So you take your pick, to walk with Him or to do without.'

Where are you going after earth?




( may be continued ... )

gulp

accepting the truth.

Sometimes accepting the truth is really going to hurt you because you have got to swallow all your pride. Pride of thinking you are right, pride of your own worth, pride of what you think you can achieve by your own strength, pride of thinking we can get whatever we want. Pride of thinking you are something.

We need to be torn down, really broken, really down on the ground. the dirt.. To actually ask God to be the one to mend us, the let Him be the potter as we be the clay. To let go of our own thoughts, our own personal believes, our own will. Sometimes we have to be so low to be able to hear from the most High. Before we will actually want to really listen.

it's really time for me to swallow my pride :(..

Walk

lingering back to those days,

memories.

moments, they never stay.

seasons.

the old disappears and out springs the new,

changes.

we meet and say goodbye,

lets turn the pages.

can we stop at chapter 1?

no.

time passes with age,

lost.

we learn as we grow,

gain.

we believe before we see,

faith.

we hope even though we'll never know,

trust.

we let go,

grip.

We hold on to God,

the truth.

His promises,

real.

Forgetfulness of self,

love.

Rid of pride,

humility.

He is the light,

sight.

He is the living water,

Life.

Everyday we receive,

gifts.

He is always with us,

blessed.

He said "Follow Me".

Walk. c;

-noelle kan

and we wouldn't know when we'll ever know.

sometimes i wonder when i'll ever met you and if i do already know you. But i do somehow believe you are out there somewhere, though the both of us don't know that one day, our life would crash and collide. Will life take me on a journey that would lead me to you, and will it be so special making the wait seem worth everything? I somehow do believe it would.

Recent and past hopes that disappoint, dreams that came crashing down, rejections that made me feel worthless and as though i just was not good enough or that i am so flawed that they didn't feel the same way about me. But i guess its all is for the better? I guess it would all make sense once the day come when we find out why those things had to happen to bring us to where we ' now' to be able to say, 'so for this reason'. 

I have had lots of dreams, as i am very much of a dreamer. You know, the tendency of creating my own perfect plan before knowing that life's course would actually change? Well, have learned not to do that anymore. You can't like someone and have preconceive ideas before you know you'll ever be together and make yourself think he is going to feel the same. Its silly and i am rather silly. It's good to know, though, that God knows everything and know everything the best. 

And my God, He has brought me this far. Every blessing, every achievement, every random beautiful surprise that have popped up along the way, have been from Him. He truly loves and cares. I cannot boast much about myself because i know, i really do know that if there is anything good that has come my way, its because He has given it to me. Talents,  if i happen to be wise (wisdom),  skills, and the open doors. And those close doors, those insecurities and weaknesses I can be thankful for them too,  His power and strength always shines through them, as long as we trust Him on it. 

Who knew this tiny quiet small town girl would be where she is now. I am utterly grateful:) Life has been amazing, and i wouldn't have want it to happen any other way. Because His dreams for me, are ultimately better, greater and much wiser. He is the source of wisdom, of love, of beauty. How can i expect anything less?

My life is in good hands. I don't know when i will ever meet him. But if we both know the One who is going to bring us together, we can only learn something about patience and to wait.

 c:
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"If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" - Matthew 7:11

boo!

hello , its been awhile :)

"But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged by you or by a human court. In fact, I do not even judge myself. " - 1 Corinthians 4:3

You know, you'll realized that whatever you do, there always will be people who are mean, who will always point out the imperfections of others, enlarge it and talk about it. I reckon a person should always learn to look at their self first and realize how imperfect they are before pointing fingers and slandering another. The one who is always slandering the other would always say that they are trying to help the other person but the truth is, they might just be bringing the other person to a much lower view of themselves :(.

I reckon its always good to look at the bright side of things, but not neglecting things we realize that needs change and where change for the better can be implemented. Now, i feel that whatever the view of others is about me. It doesn't matter anymore. Everyone can think what they like, but im never going to be one to dwell in self-pity nor self-exaltation. But to just continue to do the best in all i can regardless of what i think others think. I guess what matters more is your heart in doing things. Where its place is. The reason you are doing things, and to always commit our plans to God and acknowledge Him all the way. And we can't even know how to judge ourselves :p

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding" - Proverbs 3:5

Sometimes i get into the state where i feel, omg i am doing things wrong. I should be doing this, and this and that. But then what i should do is to just trust God with all my heart! We are where we are for a reason, and whatever that has been given to use to do is also a gift, and God can definitely use in every situation we are in. Its good to be contented wherever we are!:) Know that it is a blessing. And that God is sovereign so we don't need to worry about our past mistakes. etc But to always focus on doing the best today! To seek Him each day.

I am so very grateful of how God has brought me this far on this adventure of ours, and I can't expect anything less from Him, even when my life seems like a waiting room at the moment. hehe..

I was reading Daniel and he was within a very secular culture. But whatever it was, he choose to live by God's standards and what honors God. He also wisely choose to negotiate rather than to rebel. He and the rest of his friends also adjusted to the culture of the Babylonians, serve the King, as long as it didn't compromise obedience towards God. God even gave them favor and knowledge and wisdom and skills :D.

 remember now, are in this world, but not of it :)

"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what that good and acceptable and perfect will of God." - Romans 12:2

"Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ." - 1 Thessalonians 5:23

shaloms

Hope

Hoping in God is like knowing the sun would rise the next day. Have you watched the morning sun, anticipating it peaking from the horizon and slowly rising heralding another day the Lord has made.
He brings forth light, He shows the way, the makes the blind see, He brings forth Life!

"The young lions do lack, and suffer hunger: but they that seek the LORD shall not want any good thing." - Psalms 34:10

Seek the Lord. You shan't want any other, nothing else will satisfy :)

" Again, the kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and hid; and for joy over it he goes and sell all that he has and buys that field" - Matthew 13:44

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"Ma la via che io batto egli la conosce; se mi mettesse alla prova, ne uscirei come l'oro." - Giobbe 23:10


the Lord is the author and perfecter of our faith. He is a good God. Cling on to Him. :)