I was going through my old post, from another blog and i realized how i said i would never want to come back to this country. Because there is so much bad going on in this country. Things that could get you frustrated , annoyed, upset. That sometimes people live like they do not care, or could not be bothered trying anymore. But i guess , i really believe God changed me. Still not perfect. But somehow this time when im back here in this country, i see beauty too, i see kindness and love, and generosity. I can feel at ease and peace. I can be at rest. There is no rush or urgency in me to flee.
And the reason is that i've learn to just trust God. To see that His guidance, His lead, His wisdom had lead me to see beyond my own eyes. About what life is all about. You know how i took up the job to be a teacher, and it came like an unexpected gift and i realize that i must take this opportunity, it may be tiny but it will be sweet. Sometimes i would think about how life would be, when i'll meet that guy i'll marry, how i am going to support myself financially as well as have enough to look after my parents, and whatever else the future will bring. But even though i may not look like i am reaching towards any goal that may provide the security or stability of what the future may bring. I feel that the Lord will provide, Everything and i mean everything in His perfect timing. That if i just follow him and do His good work that no matter what, i am secure and on solid ground. He will look after me. And whatever the future may bring, He will provide that it will all be covered too. I never need to worry, I never need to strive like the world does.
God wants all of our Heart.
" Only fear the Lord, and serve Him in truth with all your heart" - 1 Samuel 23:24
" Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord,
And whose hope is in the Lord.
For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters,
Which spreads out its roots by the river.
And will not fear when heat comes;
But its leaf will be green.
And will not be anxious in the year of drought,
Nor will cease from yielding fruit" - Jeremiah 17:7-8
" The heart is deceitful above all things,
And desperately wicked;
Who can know it?
I the Lord, search the heart,
I test the mind,
Even to give every man according to his ways,
According to the fruit of his doings. " - Jeremiah 17:10
God bless all :)
